Someone had once told me that I am free.
I don't remember who, when and where.
But its not important.
Perhaps it was an interesting man and he had some interesting thoughts. Then I tried to look into his eyes and find answers to my questions , but I read emptiness only.
Were the words about freedom?
Did he give it, or selected it?
The emptiness was very deep, and I was afraid to drown in it.
I thought that it will swallow me whole.
And I realised what his interest why in me.
When he said that I was free, he would seize me and make a slave.
I think, Hi knew that is freedom, because his eyes were empty.
He was absolutely free from thoughts and ideas, determination or desire.
But, he has one desire, I think.
He wanted me, my brain, my thoughts, my talent, my soul and spirit.
And everything that was mine.
He tried to seize me, when he said that I am free.
He absorbed my mind, his vain, colourless, poisonous eyes and speeches.
But I couldn't resist.
His web was very sweet.
I felt like a worm, squashed by lies and flattery.
I was bound. I couldn't move. I was stunned and dumbfounded.
I was very hurt. It was very painful to think and remember this man.
I tried to get up, but his power of emptiness asphyxiate me.
Yes, the emptiness has a power!
I understood it. Its power in the freedom.
The freedom from everything.
This is something inexplicable and horrible.
Awful, when a lot of empty and deceitful people are around you.
Awful, when they trying to make you like a slave.
They slave. I am a slave of their desires, whims, pleasures and emptiness. How is possible to live like a slave?
To be empty and false too. To live without ideas, without a future, past and present.
My mind destroyed and burnt.
Probably, this person who said that I am free, wasn't right.
I am alone and myself. I own myself. I do not belong to anyone and I don't need anything from anybody.
WHAT A PITY!!!